Thursday, 10 July 2008

life film...


fantasy is a luxury…

memories…

an agony...

someone should just cut up and can that reel of film...

in shards and shreds…

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i know how that feels. to want to take the reel of your past and go to specific bits and carefully slice them right out. to want to go to the doctor in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and undergo that mind treatment. how they say the past is just the past and is history, but even history is hard to ignore and almost certainly cannot be forgotten, no matter how hard you try. always there, always haunting

not just cut it up and can it in shards and shreds, but obliterate them completely, every aspect. never existed before. erase it. make a clean slate of it. a truly clean one. most people don't understand. they won't because they don't want to deal with the film reels in their own minds. dealing with yours makes them pull their out to deal with, too

i love you
hug
sad mummy

the little one who cares said...

hi mommy dear...
don't be sad no more... u've a birth coming up soon enough... happiness becomes u... even if u've got to bawl... it had better be tears of joy... -fat hug- u couldn't be more in saying that one often wants to just take the reel of the past and just slice them out and just come down with that bout of amnesia to forget all that was... past maybe past... but it still exists... there's no erasing it no matter how hard we try nor want it to... that's the worst part about it at times... as for history... well... there ain't no happy moments in most of them more often than not... haunt us they do... and it never lets up... ever... there's no such thing as tabula rasa as far as this's concerned... the damn philosopher lied through his teeth... yeesh... won't even let us off with the dead dentures... as for others not wanting to deal... well... guess it's the same game for us all... wanting to run and hide... only to find... there's really so much that can be done before u come back to square one... hope am not pulling out your no good moments... -squishy hug- love u too... smile for me... and the cute little boy who's about to be out in another couple of months... -smuacks-

love...
me